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Oh no you don’t.
I’m falling now again. Stumbling over everything that comes my way. Can’t seem to get back up no matter how hard I try. Oh how much it hurts. On my knees again. Getting scraped and bruised by my sin. I hardly ever let you in. What do I do now on this floor again? Dejected and torn apart some times I wish it would all end. Oh how much it hurts. But yet no matter how much I hurt you and crush your heart with eager smiles all about me, you still love me. Thank you. Oh how thankful I am, Daddy. Oh, God. I don’t deserve it at all. You never let me go, even when I do. My Father. Please pour your grace down on me. I won’t let you go. Burn out the pain Holy Spirit. Cut me clean and healed. I want life. I choose life. Now I live in you.
I know I did..I know. Just not so sure what I did to piss you off. If only I knew. Oh well.
Hope we can still be friends regardless. I still think you’re awesome.
And all this time, I thought it all needed a title. I’m sorry, but honestly I have to think of you to get to sleep at night. Naked I sit, vulnerable and exposed, my weakness is revealed. You see me for who I am and that doesn’t bother you. This forbidden love was always meant to be, don’t they see? Or is it fear that drives them? That fear that one day, control will die. And all that will be left is death. But it’s okay, cuz that’s all that we need. Without it, I can just hide in the shadows, away from the heat, dancing in my comfort. Until they find me, I’ll keep crying myself to sleep, thinking of you. Until I die. Did you not know that I wasn’t that strong. Well now it’s all on the table. My weakness is seen by all. The hundreds that look up to me will look away in shame and disgust. Because I love you. The only one I wanted this time. The daggers from towers and cathedrals won’t hurt me while I’m covered in this holy water. Cuz I’m drenched in it now! This blood protects me from everything. Even you, the one that hurts me the most, must bow down before the blood. And when I’m covered. I cower in the shadow of the almighty. Cuz I know he can take it all away. I need you to know that I love your writing. I love your ways. So much like mine, it’s nothing but attractive. Till it cuts me. Be careful, child. Settle down. We all have to die sooner or later. Fall on the green, eat the ants that pretend to be strong. Take your own medicine. You can handle it. We’re built for more then this world, don’t you see? Back to you I’ll go. Slick your hair back in preparation for the ultimate. You’re so scared you have to lie down and write away the world, just to cope. To cope with the fact that you’re a bad son, a terrible brother, the worst friend, and most of all, the biggest liar. But it’s all the same. Keep it up. You’re so weak it’s admirable. Let your hands shake, son. That’s normal. You’re built for more. Lie down. Swallow your fear and love instead. I love you for who you are. I ask you. Will you come away with me son? Will you take my second chances for the millionth time? I love it when you do. You were worth it all when you think you weren’t. So was she. My perfect children love like they can’t. It’s okay, son. Take it home
and rest. Settle down. Oh how I love you more then the stars. Please know that, my precious dear. Goodnight to the hearts of the perfect trapped in the sky, sinking in the ocean.
Mmmm
I have two empty bowls, two silver spoons, and a tub of mint chocolate chip ice cream. If only.. :/
Weary.
Just posted something for the sake of posting something. And I suppose to see if it would post a picture. Happy 4th of July. The dumbest holiday ever. Celebrating independence from a nation who is one of our greatest allies. Haha, I can’t believe people actually celebrate Independence Day. The retardest thing in the world. iwishiwaswithyou. Yes I do.
